You Just Never Know

Betrayal, hurt feelings, unanswered questions, dreams trying to answer what happened. Sometimes you just never know why a friend has left you. Why a friend has lied to you about the lack of contact. Why a friend once family, disappears.

The dangers of social media are unless you want to block, you end up taking a punch. Notifications let you know whatever the so-called friend is posting, bragging about, or clearing their own issues for themselves by painting a rainbow of masks. So, you either block, and risk (is it really?) not hearing from them again, or, you take it in and let it go.

I have a friend like this. Well, had. Reached out, reached up, reached in  –  to no avail. I really don’t know why there is this chasm. Is it the friend’s partner and that influence? Is it my refusal to cross a moral boundary? Or does it fall into the category of… you just never know. And end up realizing you don’t need to ever care – again.

This is the first time in some 64 years that I haven’t been able to put the puzzle together at some level. This person has embarrassed me professionally and hurt me personally.

Two factors to live by in this world are “fear is not an option” and “never be a victim”.

Your silence is not victimizing me. I have chosen to let you go, never to return. It’s what you’ve earned in your me-i-tis world of silence.

Sometimes, you just have to say goodbye, even if, you don’t know why.

Sometimes, you’ll just never know.